Last night was crazy. I felt so vulnerable, and unprotected away from my usual friends. See, all my friends went to KottonMouth Kings concert, and even though I am not a huge fan of them, i wanted to go because it was a concert, and everyone loves a concert. Well, Daddy Dearest said that since we are painting my room today (yay!) that i couldnt go because I would be too tired.

So instead I chilled with Colin, Jared Ryan and Jeff and these two really bitchy girls that Jared liked, but who I hated because

1. Most of the time i can't stand the fakeness and the annoying quality most girls seem to have

and

2. They didnt even acknowledge me the whole 5 hours we were together, thus making me draw the conclusion that they didnt like me.

and

3. I have no tolerance for rude people who are just rude before they even meet the person. Absolutley NO tolerance.

So anyways, we drove around forever and i talked to Colin..but I hardly talked to anyone because i didnt have them figured out yet.

Call me crazy, but I always figure a person out before I go and talk to them and try get into their conversation. See with my usual friends, i got them all figured out.

Sara-Laid back, never talk about basketball or she'll whoop your ass, never talk about liking her x-boyfriend or she'll whoop your ass.

Anna-always, ALWAYS dance. She cant be mad if you dance with her.

Alan&Shannon-just be real.

Kevin-laugh ALOT and make funny scooby doo noises.

BT- try to make as many sarcastic comments as possible, and getting drunk is a plus.

Kyle-just whatever, hes a crazy guy.

So I hadnt figured these people out. I wasnt going to go throw my head in their conversations only to get funny looks.

But Colin...I have colin figured out almost to perfection. Its werid whenever we are together we end up having HUGE indepth conversations about parents, friends, ect. And like ive really only known this kid for a couple months.

Maybe I send off the 'therapist' vibe or something.

But anyways he 'REALLY WANTS A GIRLFRIEND'.

and hes a cool kid, like i wouldnt mind....

but i have commitment issues.

I dont want to hurt him...

and I just dont feel like i deserve anyone.

so Poo.

more later this entry was HUMUNGO!

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