Sorry my life has been quite boring (if you can believe that)-

but the good thing is i have been nominated the Grasspad (where i work) whore.

yeay!

its funny. I dont dress provocative or anything of that sort. In any case most of the time you cant even see my legs/arms/ and my crAzy hair normally covers half my face anyway.

I dunno-boys will be boys i guess.

Also~ on thursday i am going to tell the school office that i have a family affair and then go to somebody elses funeral.

it wasnt my idea-

it was alan & shannons.

they have their heart set on going to funeral, so i guess i am joinin them-dress in black and sit in the back row.

Sometimes I have these amazing conversations with this "goth" girl named Hazel who is in my creative writing class. She is the sweetest little darling, and i knew her way back before she made this total transformation. She used to be this goody/goody straight A's kinda girl.

And to tell you the truth, i am sorta envious of her.

I mean she does what she wants and never second guesses herself. I guess her friends are what you call 'True Friends', and even though I know my friends really care about me-

its not the same kind of care or compassion.

I'm not sure, but its like I want to be like Hazel. Sometimes I wanna wear all black, adorn my fingers with dark polish, heavily outline my eyes and walk down the halls.

Its when you do something like that you realize who your true friends are. Even though the people i chill with dont run exactly w/ the in crowd (ex: cheerleaders, football players) they still take pride in their reputations and i wonder do they ever just say

FUCK IT

because i think that all the time.

And i admire Hazel and she draws wonderful pictures of faeries and such.

<3

megan