I met this REALLY nice/sweet/[insert good adjective here] girl last night when i was with anna, sara, kevin, alan, kyle and tyler. She is 2 years older, so we went to her boyfriend, Kirby's house and chilled.

Anna kept saying "megan, know your limits...you are spending the night at my house remember?" honestly-she said that over and over like a goddamn broken record. Then Sara chided in and it was like double forces and Lindsey was just like "Let her chill girls!" honestly. I love sara and anna to death, but they arent my fucking babysitters.

So 11:15 rolls around, and anna tells me its time to go home. Lindsey said i could crash at their apartment if i wanted, and so i told anna to go ahead without me. I didnt want her mothering me all the way home and when we got to her house.

When your real mother abandons you, you don't start looking for a new one. You sorta lose faith in the whole system-ya know?

so they hooked me up with a room, and, after consumption, i made my way to the bed and spun away.

It was like a big ol' happy family. Lindsey and Kirby let me do my thing, and i let them do theirs. Then some other guy at some point in the evening showed up. His name was scott, and he was also two years older. He woke me up [because i guess i was sleeping in the bed he usually sleeps in] and we talked a long time about things i don't remember and then he let me drink some more.

Glorious wonderful fucking freedom. Then i dont know what happened after that. But here i am! and scott couldn't find the redial on his phone, even though it was printed in big bold letters.

Thats all i want is a little taste or independence.

is that so much to ask for?

Also-i think anna is mad at me because i 'ditched' her. But she ditched me because she wont let me be myself, and connect with people i really like. People who dont give a fuck.

Adios muchachos. must go buy yummy presents.

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